they deny

i think everybody in this world is repudiative. there are people who deny their parent for thinking their parent cannot accept their way of life, even when their parent do accept them for who they are, they deny it still, but then they deny that they deny that their parent are not being judgemental, so they get out of home, finding someplace when their mind do not judge them with their own denial. there are people who deny their children because realizing that they cannot provide what their children need, even when they finaly realize that their children does not demand soo much, they deny that fact, and so they deny the fact that they denying, so they got away. there are people who deny their love because knowing that they just being so scare to get hurt, because they know they themself cannot love their love as their lover would, and that they are not ready, so they deny their love and their love, but they deny that they are denying, because to realize that they could do such thing is even worse, so they get away of love by either being a love-experiencer or a loner. there are people who deny their god, knowing they are just too lazy too submit to what their god asks, and they realize that but denying it, so they become an atheist or an agnostic. there are people who deny their friend, who won’t bother trust people, for them being alone is way much better, so eventhough they had a lot of friends, they deny them. there are people who deny that they are lovable. there are people who deny they are weak. and so on and so on. me, i deny that i did deny everything i wrote here and that i’m denying it.

where to go?

now that we’re here,
how are you?

now that we’re here,
have you found what you want?

now that we’re here,
have you reconcile with yourself?

now that we’re here,
have you been able to open up?

now that we’re here,
can you accept that you’re not perfect?

now that we’re here,
have you healed?

now that we’re here,
can you remember how love feels?

now that we’re here,
can you still remember the promises you made?

now that we’re here,
where would you go?

now that we’re here,
i hope everything
will worked out beautifully for us both
from here then on.

happy march 16th heart